Motherly Love: As a single mom, raising 4 kids, there were only a few things that were really important to me. I had to make sure that I went to work, paid all of the bills, put food on the table and checked 4 folders full of homework each night. Everything that I did was for the good of the order of our household. But real life still happened.
Getting Emotional: It was not until I found myself crying on the floor, (with a nine year old hand rubbing my back, telling me that everything was going to be alright), that I realized something: If I’m not okay, then my kids will not be okay. It was rough, but I had to work hard staying focused on being mom, teacher, caregiver. Also, I had to be fund raiser, basketball cheerleader, and taxi person. It seemed that as long as I assumed those roles, everything was up to appearances. But when I tried to free myself from the grind and express who I was, I was met with a surprise. I did not know how to operate outside of those titles without running into walls. Why was it so hard for me to sing, recite, speak, express…. to release things that had been welling up inside of me for years?
But Now: This blog is an opportunity for me to speak about how I have felt and express some of the things that have always been there. It is time to get some things out! God has actually allowed me to understand and acknowledge that sometimes past experiences shape us negatively or stunt and stifle our growth. But His healing can clear our minds. His healing frees us to get the troubling things off of our chests and lets us exhale as we head towards our futures.
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.